Just about every morning, I have the same agenda — get the dishes done from the day before if there are any, complete an intense half hour workout (that’s about all I have time to do), and then get ready and go to the synagogue where I pray in the morning.
For a number of reasons we got to bed a bit later than usual last night, and so when Malka woke us up in tears, I did my best to rock her back to sleep. I must have spent a good half an hour trying but could not make it happen. Finally, Elizabeth nursed her to sleep and that was the end of it. I set my alarm for fifteen minutes later, or so I thought, and went back to sleep.
I ended up waking up closer to forty-five minutes later, before the alarm (which had been set to an hour and fifteen minutes later instead of just fifteen minutes later) had a chance to ring. I felt much more rested than had I only gotten the extra fifteen minutes, however. As a consequence of waking up that much later, however, I was not able to both do the dishes and exercise and so I had to be content just to do the dishes — they needed to be done, after all.
I was just getting out of the shower and was about to get dressed to leave for the morning when I heard Malka crying again. I ended up spending the early part of the morning at home with her, rocking her and pacing in the room before finally giving up on all these different ways to get her to go to sleep and just sat down on the couch in the living room and listened to a podcast by Brendon Burchard about what to do when one is facing or has recently faced a devastating crisis. The first thing to do, he said, is to reach out to others — and to realize that you are not the first nor will you be the last person to have this particular problem.
I sat there with Malka partially asleep on my chest. I had gotten irritated a bit because I had not gone to the synagogue the day beforehand for the very same reason. This is when another perspective on the matter entered my mind — and I thought it was worth sharing on this blog.
It is true that I entirely missed part of my normal morning routine — but I got the opportunity, as it were, to spend some early morning time with my young daughter. It is just a matter of time before she will not have any problem sleeping through the night and then will be getting up on her own without any issues and going to school, and meanwhile I will still be going about doing my daily routine without the interruption — but I will also not get further time to rock her to sleep!